Most of my time spent the last 9 months of not writing on this site has been spent making plans and taking steps. As some may know, my family and I realized last Fall that our time in Southern California was swiftly coming to a close. We made a plan for a clean exit of Orange County and the Lord directed our steps to the Central Valley – Porterville, CA to be exact.
Since then we have tried to work out what the next steps are. In that time I have renovated a home, completed a Master’s degree, moved my family to Idaho, raised 6 chickens, bought a dog, and lost a job. Other than knowing I will have 2 fresh eggs and a wagging tail to greet me each morning, there are few certainties about our future. The loss of a job was a hard kick in the shins for our financial situation – and my emotional situation – so needless to say, it’s been an straining few months.
Because I grew up in a “pull up your boot straps and figure it out” sort of family, I am determined to make plans. I love making plans. While I drive, I think through odd circumstances and how I would respond so that I can have a plan someday. Each night I mentally check off where a flashlight and my shoes are in case I need to get my family out of the house in a jiffy. I notice the quickest exit to every room I’m in, just in case. I plan out what I am going to say before I say it (sometimes to my wife’s chagrin) and I always check my engine fluids and tire pressure before a long drive.
My next big plan, get a job. The question is: where? Our ultimate plan is to continue to move north to the Treasure Valley in Idaho. We’d love to land in Meridian/Eagle/Boise area next summer so we are planning accordingly. But the plan is only half the battle. The other half is the excruciatingly painful practice of waiting and trusting on the Lord to direct our steps. Proverbs is smart like that: a man makes a plan but the Lord determines his steps (16:9).
So what now? Look for a job in Porterville to get by for half a year and then look for another job in Idaho to continue the move North? Or….look for a job in Idaho now and make a temporary, solo move, a few months ahead of my family.
“Adult-ing” is difficult. It demands far more emotional, intellectual, spiritual, and physical investment than we imagined when we were young. The good news is that each of those investments are supported by the Lord. If we allow Him to help us make a plan, we can trust that the steps we take are of His direction.
So I plan. After I eat my 2 fresh eggs, pet my dog, and stir in a giant dollop of faith in my coffee each morning, I plan. And hopefully the next step we take will not be mine, but His.